I am confused about everything in my life.

How does one find answers?

I've spent the whole day around people yet I feel isolated and lonely. what else must I do?

I want some answers damn it. I'm sick and tired of being lost...... where is my life going? What have I got to live for?
MY mother blames me fpor my fahter's affair, I am with a man who doesn't love me, I don't have a promising future. I feel like a complete failure and I wish I could dig a hole and hide for the rest of my life.

Bloody hell, my depression is back.